the excitement builds, the nervousness, along with a sense of adventure. one month to go...

gratitude, day 1

Here we are again, but this year with a difference...this is the 3rd mothers day this year. Today is the American, last week it was the Spanish, last March, the British. I think about my mother and how far I've come in 5 years, at peace now, mostly. After being apart from my own children for just one year, it was hard to breathe and I flew back to see them. Yet, more often than not, 2 - 3 yrs would go by without her seeing me. that must have been so hard for her. All we can do is learn & hopefully improve our bad habits. Still, there's a feeling that I'm not complete yet, soul still calling out but unable to hear the voice clearly. Earlier, no coincidence I'm sure, a site came my way...365gratitude project. Writing here today is my first step in joining them, and I am so grateful today for having reached this peace within and for remembering this big loss with no tears, but just a smile. I am so grateful for having chosen my parents and having received their love & teaching. For all the friends & strangers that helped me along this journey. I carry it on & hopefully pass it on to my own.